Making Me a Jewel

God has created me to be a jewel, but first there has to be a process of refining. I am an unrefined jewel in the hand of God. Only the master jeweler can see the end setting and how I will adorn him.

(Quote from Fight like a Girl)
The stone you hold is the same chemical and molecular compound as an amethyst gemstone, but it differs vastly in value. This one cannot be set as jewelry, for it has no edges, facets, or fire. It is not unlike my children. There are those who go through the same process over and over again, until all their edges are dulled by the repeated experience. I love them and they are Mine, but how I long to recapture their fire, to give them facets, clean lines, and the beauty of captured light.

The stone referred to above had been processed for many weeks in a polisher. The only difference between that stone and an amethyst set in jewelry was the method of preparation. One stone chose the repeated processes of life, and the other chose to be refined by the fires.

When God speaks to you about an area of your life you have the same choice. You can chose to only allow him access to the rock-polisher dynamic that deals with the surface. You can also chose to completely surrender and give him full access to the heart and allow Him to place you in His almighty furnace. (Isaiah 48:10) I know the furnace hurts. But everything of beauty in this world is birthed through the process of fire. Simply put it is the fire that makes us pure.

It is the process of going through the fire and letting the master jeweler chisel and refine that reveals the true beauty and sets the stone in a valuable mounting.

The end result of the stone doesn’t have to be perfect, for is it the differences and the uniqueness of the jewelry that is adored.

Have you been shorting yourself of beautiful long-term gems because you were afraid of the process it was going to take to get them? Maybe you have simply endured the process and complained the whole way not granting access past the surface.

Heb 12:2 says “looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” In our trials, no matter their size, it is crucial to allow the Joy of the Lord to be set before us. This joy is so amazing that it allowed Jesus to endure the pain and suffering of the cross. How much more can we focus on it and let it lead us through.

---Now it gets personal ----

Looking back in my life I can see the places where I haven’t allowed God to go any further than skin deep. All I have to account for those trials are a few polished rocks. Maybe I learned a thing or two but I didn’t allow God to dwell further than the surface. I will never get those times back. There is nothing I can do to change that. God forgive me! May my children forgive me. Complaining kept me from the beauty God was trying to reveal. May I always see the joy set before me and chose to endure the fire knowing that I emerge a beautiful valued gem. God forgive me for complaining and only letting the world see the trials and the hardship that I was having to endure instead of showing them that you are a mighty God and your blessings of life. Even now I see that you are not done with me. You have created me to be a unique a wonderfully made piece of jewelry special to you. You wear me on your robe with satisfaction and love seeing in me the completion of you Glory. I see you even now taking me your pendent off you robe dusting me off and saying, "Daughter you are beautiful." Showing me to Jesus and pointing to speacial gem in my pendent saying," hey you remember this one, we really had to work for a while on this one, but isn't it beautiful." Carefully you place me back on your robe waiting for the opportunity to add to me and make me more spectactular, displaying your glory.

Motherhood

To those who have encouraged me since my last blog - thank you so very much. It is nice to hear an encouraging word. Sometimes I feel like all I hear from people around me is what I am doing wrong, so to read those words that I am not a failure and that other moms have struggled with the same things that I do, is truly a blessing.

I know that I am not perfect but I do try. I know my boys know they are loved. I am blessed to be able to stay home and work (and make good money doing it) and still play with them everyday and hold them when they want me to.

So thanks again for the encouraging words.

Worst Mom Award Winner

Okay, so kids should come with personalized handbooks. For example, one section should be on basic learning skills. Here is an example entry (I wish I had) I am right handed. I am a visual learner. I should know my basic colors and shapes by my thrid birthday. You can get me to potty train by... (still havn't figured that one out yet.)

So ywah right now I am a litle frustrated. Found out today that my almost four year old should be able to identify basic colors shapes and write most letters including his name. He does none of this. He can't even copy a circle. So whose fault is that? mine! All mine! Great now I have to play cacth up! I am just super frustrated. I can't even get him to potty on the toilet. How the heck am I supposed to get him to write his name????? What the blankity am I supposed to do now?

I know there are worse things to complain about but his is my little world and I am having a meltdown. I will be better later. I just want to cry right now. I am feeling quite overwhelmed and like I don't know when or where to start.

Help me lord!

Does God REALLY Exsist?

This is really cool! I found it on a another myspacer's blog. Read it now!

The professor of a university challenged his students with this question. "Did God create everything that exists?"

A student answered bravely, "Yes, he did."The professor then asked, "If God created everything, then he created evil. Since evil exists (as noticed by our own actions), so God is evil. The student couldn't respond to that statement causing the professor to conclude that he had "proved" that "belief in God" was a fairy tale, and therefore worthless.

The young student stood up and asked the professor, "May I pose a question?" "Of course" answered the professor. The young student stood up and asked: "Professor does Cold exist?"The professor answered, "What kind of question is that?...Of course the cold exists...haven't you ever been cold?"The young student answered, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of Physics, what we consider cold, in fact is the absence of heat. Anything is able to be studied as long as it tranmits energy (heat). Absolute zero is the total absence of heat, but cold does not exist. What we have done is create a term to describe how we feel if we don't have body heat or we are not hot."

"And, does Dark exist?", he continued. The professor answered "of course". This time the student responded, "Again you're wrong Sir. Darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in fact simply the absence of light. Light can be studied, darkness can not. Darkness cannot be broken down. A simple ray of light tears the darkness and illuminates the surface where the light beam finishes. Dark is a term that we humans have created to describe what happens when there's lack of light"

Finally, the student asked the professor, "Sir does evil exist?" The professor replied, "Of course it exists, as I mentioned at the beginning, we see violations, crimes, and violence everywhere in the world, and those things are evil."The student responded, "Sir, Evil does not exist. Just as in the previous cases, Evil is a term which man has created to describe the result of the absence of God's presence in the hearts of man."After this, the professor bowed his head and didn't answer back.

The young man's name was Albert Einstein!!!